Hello lovely people! Welcome back to ForeverBea after yet another 3 month time out…Whoopsie.
It has been a crazy 3/4 months for me I’ll tell you that for certain! I wanted to do a bit of a ‘Life Update’ for anyone who may be slightly interested. I didn’t want to just jump straight back into the game without sharing my new-found inspiration to carry on with my blog!
So since the last time I was active, March, it was only a month and a half left to go until I was flying to America. Unfortunately in that time I was actually going through a breakup, subsequently meaning I didn’t end up going on holiday. As upsetting and painful as that was, I still always try to stand by “Everything happens for a reason”. It was extremely hard sometimes and believe me it took a while, but looking back now, not going away on that holiday was probably the best outcome for the situation at the time. So unfortunately there will be no Disney World/Florida spam posts. This was actually my first proper breakup. And I have never experienced pain and hurt like it. However like everyone told me, there would soon come a day where you wake up and basically tell yourself you have no more tears left to cry, and eventually move on. It took me a month to realise my worth and now, we are actually still seeing each other and working on things, but like I said, everything happens for a reason. During this time I had also been made redundant. Which was scary, and starting a new job in the frame of mind I was in, ruined me. So with all that shit happening, I thought, this isn’t me. Whoever I had become over these past 5 months or so, it wasn’t me. I used to be so bubbly, no care in the world, I used to enjoy the things I don’t anymore and it was time for a change.
I knew the first thing I had to do was tan. Get my Bondi Sands ‘ultra dark’ tan back on and gurlllll I was feeling it. In a way I wish I never entered the world of tanning as its toooooo reliable and addicting, next minute I’m sat there looking like an absolute Oompa-Loopa and I’m loving every second. NEXT, my nails. I’ve never been one for acrylics, but envied those with them. It’s difficult because I’d know I’d hate them, but the girls were like nope it’s time to do something about those claws girl. So I did, and now I will never go back. LONG NAILS FOREVER.
Lastly, to boost my confidence even more and to complete the week of pampering (not like I had the money to do all of this at all) was to sort my hair. I used to be a little blondie but back in November last year I decided to dye it brown. And I loved it don’t get me wrong! but I missed being blonde. Blonde and sassy. Eighty quid later….haha. Worth every penny.
Things have been okay. Nothing is going to get back to being hunky-dory straight away, and that’s not me just on about my relationship, but life in general. I’m getting back to being me again and I know I’ve said that before, I’ve said that countless of times actually. But this time I’ve opened up to the right people, and have gotten the help I need. Between you and me, Im actually in the middle of being signed off of work for 2 weeks. I just needed the break. I don’t feel guilty for that. You should never feel guilty saying that!
I have a few things planned actually, watch this space 😉
Thank you for being patient.